Much Work Ahead
Executive summary: There is much work ahead if I am to have a lasting psychic change.

I have set a new sobriety record for myself – my sobriety date is still Jan. 1 – but it is not translating into any kind of consistent joy or success. While I do have some happy streaks, they are always ruined by significant mood swings and periods of psychotic–level isolation.

Two or three weeks ago, things were great. But now my outlook is very poor, and nothing has really changed. I can’t seem to keep that inner flame of positivity burning. I am so thin–skinned that the most insignificant occurrences seem to send me into a tailspin. I still keep everything inside and don’t communicate.

However, I also know that I can change everything simply by changing my attitude. I am again reminded of the quote: “Nothing has changed but my attitude. Everything has changed.”

Some simple actions I can take to change my attitude today, in the next few minutes and hours, would be: turning off the TV, reading something positive, hitting my knees, leave my crib and go the office, returning the phone calls I have ignored, and getting back to working on the websites that are now overdue.