Total Acceptance
He cannot picture life without alcohol. Some day he will be unable to imagine life either with alcohol or without it. Then he will know loneliness such as few do. He will be at the jumping–off place. He will wish for the end.

Only an alcoholic can understand the exact meaning of a statement. Like this one. The double standard that held me captive as an active alcoholic also filled me with terror and confusion: “If I don’t get a drink I’ m going to die,” competed with “If I continue drinking it’s going to kill me”. Both compulsive thoughts pushed me ever closer to the bottom. That bottom produced a total acceptance of my alcoholism–with no reservations whatsoever– and one that was absolutely essential for I had ever faced, but as I found out later on, a necessary one if I was to succeed in this program.